Even though it is well into the New Year, I just stumbled upon my New Years Resolution. While I have failed many resolutions throughout my life the one I made for 2012 is one that I can very much stick with. My resolution is start a music blog, an indie music blog to be specific. As you read this you are probably thinking “oh great, exactly what we need another hippie who just listens to that weird music.” And to that I say..I couldn’t agree more..

So I am a avid viewer of the hit AMC show ” The Walking Dead”. I immediately fell in love with it the moment it came on my television on Halloween night almost one year ago. And when the second season came on I noticed a couple of things that made this season’s zombies scarier than last. First of all, these zombies are much faster. Now I know these modern day zombies aren’t supposed to be super slow but these zombies this year are seriously running after they prey. Secondly, they are smarter. In the first episode of the season, we saw a zombie enter the trailer and look around in search of human life. Now I know these are only two differences, but it has only been two episodes so give me time..

I can’t believe this is happening. Here I am a high school graduate with my future ahead of me. It’s really weird though. I have waited for this time to come. Leaving my parents, embarking on my life, and best of all breaking my curfew. But what’s really weird is that now that it is here, all I fell is anxiety, with little to no excitement.

   People say that there are five big steps in your life. The first being college, your first real job, marriage, your first child and I guess death. I’m not very sure about the last one but whatever. Anyway, I’ve notice that I am taking my first big step: COLLEGE!! It’s a little freighting. So many things come rushing in my head. Did I pick the right school? What do I want to major in? How will I pay for this? These questions worry me.

   Another thought that I keep thinking is: REJECTION. I hear so many people say that they are qualified for a certain university. Months go by, anticipation builds, and then the rejection letter comes. A rejection, to me, basically means that I’m not good enough. It’s hard to face it. My mother and father tell me that I’m a perfect student but according to University of Georgia, I’m not. It sucks but it’s something that I will have to face.

   I keep thinking about location. Where do I want to go? I know I can’t stay in the South. But then I keep thinking that maybe I can. Do I want to go so far away? I just don’t and it worries me. I have never been away from my parents for more than a week. And even for that week, I felt lonely and super homesick. I know I can use this college experience as a huge growing period but it’s just going to be hard.

   It’s just so much to think about in such a small period of time. The future is now and it’s SCARY!! It’s just amazing to think about how fast time has gone by. I just remember the days of playing on the playground at Spelman Nursery School without a care in the world. Now here I am planning my future. My first big step is here. Time to jump in. Right?